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i hate fights but sometimes they make you realize who your friends really are its sad to know that once im gone they dont care its just like a normal day only im not there. but i guess people change they grow apart and lead seperate lives. nothing is forever. hmm... im tired but i have to stay up to do gay language arts and study for my gay math finals which im going to fail because im retarded at math.  but hey it happens. i really cant wait till i get to go to florida and just get away.. its going to be so great.. yay!!  i wanna be a little girl again.. ugh i'd give anything back when i was happy and care free and had all my family. right jana? haha. i need a digital camera. i am so uncool without one. but hey it happens. god i seriously hate school its too stressful and there's too much work to be done. geez why does life have to be so hard?

- - abby

"forever ended too soon, if only i could press rewind and pause my life on those moments that have escaped me..."

you could have never even guessed we were friends before. to think as soon as im out of the picture things are fine your happy and worrying about guys. ":) :) wowww" all i have to say is i hate you. thats all...

"well if you could heal my broken heart and put back the missing peices in my life, well if you could read my thoughts if you could feel my pain, well if you could lead me home and give me all your love and all that you are if you could make a promise of forever, well then i guess you'd be exactly what i need, all that i've been searching for but somehow i think im searching for something unreachable.."

this is complete bullshit. i'm done and it all gets old. i dont feel like explaining it .. dont you love how people lie and are completely full of it? its not worth it and neither are they. im done. fuck it. 

"i'm feeling lost if i could only have it all then i'd be alright 'cause i can't see who i really am through all the doubt that t'm living in the distance grows, i'm sinking down and what i lost, it can't be found although i try can't find my way nothing is falling into place..."

alright so jillian came over last night which is always great. haha. we hungout and stuff and went on a lonnnnngg walk haha. and then we were like dancing in the backroom to some old school music which was pretty grand and then we had this big discussion , it was good. and i just found out that one of the girls that dislikes jillian doesnt like me now either.. and yeah i didnt ever do anything to her and i never talk to her. so yeah thats always great too. how can people hate others that they dont know ? i know i kinda label people but like i dont ever just hate them or dislike them without knowing them first. it's just immature and its like come on how low can you be? ugh, but whatever they just need to learn to grow up. so we stayed up till about 5 or so and then got up at noon. and i had to go over to my grandparents house and the family members all picked out things they wanted. it was quite sad  i really miss my blue grandpa and grandma. goshhh. like it seems so unfair that people in there twenties still have their grandparents and i lost my grandma miller when i was like 11 and my blue grandma at 14 and my blue grandpa right after i turned 15. it just sucks. i hate cancer with a passion.

ugh.. today is so blah.. i dont feel good and i dont wanna go to school and i have gay language arts to do and im like dead tired. well i guess i better go get my shower and then finish my homework and what-not. bye bye :)

- -abby.. =)

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